So, writing is difficult, erasing is good and useful.  Thank you Google folks for creating this handy venue. What can I contribute?   Actually I noticed it focuses and energizes my writing if I visualize a particular person, someone I like and respect, as the reader or listener.  My thoughts are so often confused and dark that I don't think sharing them with others will be that helpful.  Except perhaps as a way of showing that you/we/me are not the only one that might feel this way about their thoughts.

My fall back is music.  I feel safer behind my accordion, or wall of keyboards.  So this starts out rather mundane and personal.  Not the entertaining and clever blog I vaguely imagined writing.  If perchance some human happens upon these words, please say hi.  I thought I'd share some things I've learned from these sixty years of life.  Carrying around this particular fuzzy monkey brain.  Busy, confused, creative, wires crossed much of the time.  So I will push "publish" boy how that word has changed in connotation.
If you publish and no one reads did the tree really fall?  I guess since no one is probably reading this I can write whatever I want.  blah blah blah.  Oh, but maybe some one will, and they will be disgusted and irritated with me, and my reputation will be ruined.  I noticed I'm trying to find a way to flow honestly into this page.  To write like I sometimes play music.  So in music there are forms to follow, chord progressions if you are playing or writing a song, repetition, variation etc.   What are equivalents in blogging?  Good thing to google.  A journal, a confessional, a stream of consciousness.  A series of articles.  A serial memoir, how is that different from a journal?  Should I begin Dear Reader?  Of course now I remember that I am writing this for my self.  A way to process, see my thoughts on a page.  Maybe a form of therapy that might help me get to a point where I begin to feel good enough about myself, enough self confidence to share useful ideas with you, my dear reader.